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Weekly state: audacious.

What a lazy bastard!

How daring to just remain silent and sell it off as a valuable contribution!

Well sometimes, I have learned, it is better to remain silent. Sometimes, moments of quiescence are cherished by your partner in dialogue. Even though dialogue is driven by an exchange of ideas, thoughts, at times even insults. But dear reader, enjoy the silence.

You will notice that thoughts tend to gush like a geyser if let run free. But just like it, they will calm down and end as a puddle. And within the puddle, you can dip, first your toe, then your whole body. Don’t worry, it’s warm!

But what happens if one geyser meets another one? They will compete on who has the highest pillar of water!

Let everyone get to that puddle state of mind, we can dip together, soak together, relax. Let us observe what the geyser has splurged out with so much force. Now, it’s calm.

But we need patience, fighting the urge to react to that beautiful exhibition of force.

How audacious of me to stay silent.

See you next week.

Weekly state: stacking.

A sandwich so beautiful, I don’t even eat it.

A slice of sourdough toast, soft and yet so comforting. Not even the toasting sun of the Atlantic coast is able to burn it. Instead, tiny freckles on its surface arise.

A layer of romaine lettuce, crispy and refreshing. A pleasure for the eye and the soul. Not an excuse to have some vegetables with a seemingly (so people say) unhealthy meal, but a true and necessary edition to foreshadow the underlying depth.

Some cheese, for comfort. The form and consistency don’t even matter, the only important bit is the maturity. For maturity cannot be learned, it is only achieved. Some never succeed in reaching that level.

A bit of sauce. In this case, slight spicyness to reflect the character of its origin, a warm and cultured coastal town in northern Portugal. From here, explorers with good and bad intentions have ventured onto the sea. They brought back a new world of spice and sensation. The sauce smells gorgeous.

Another slice of bread, as all good things must have a beginning and an end.

As I look at the beauty I get nervous. A perfectly complex representation of what I long for.

I have another look and decide to let the moment pass. It will haunt me, but oh so sweetly.

Weekly state: practicing.

The wiggle of a dog’s tail. The smell of incoming rain after a hot day. The moment of finishing a good book. Creating something, creating art. Being truthful and open. Caring.

The smell of a favourite drink. A comfortable chair. Friday.

The goosebumps from a new song. Laughter in a group. Laughter with yourself, about yourself, alone. Wind on a hot day. Having brought sunglasses when you need them.

Stillness. A surprising pleasure. Thoughtfulness. Cooking something. Serving food to friends. Preparing someone’s favourite meal. Petting a dog.

Practicing everything and nothing in particular. Practicing nonchalance. Practicing good living.

Weekly state: pulled.

I am sitting on a rail trolley and someone is pulling me towards the sun.

The blinding light is burning my eyes and all senses are numbed. Logic is lost when the only thing you worry about is where you are being pulled.

The henchman in the gold Trenchcoat glitters in the sun. Will he bring me to the promised land or eternal doom? What does the promised land even look like?

The wheels are squeaking and slowly we are making our way, somewhere, I guess…

I have accepted my fate. I could stand up and walk, but in which direction? Should I run ahead of the henchman or go the other way? Maybe the henchman knows better? Maybe there is a bigger plan, or is he just trotting along the rails? I mean, rails go somewhere.

I lie down on the rail trolley and rest my head on the wooden planks.

“Hey Mr Golden Henchman, what’s your name”

“I am you, Papa Shanghai”

Weekly state: deprived.

I don’t know which state I am in or what the time is, all I know is that I must write.

It is never really clear what is missing when you’re forcing yourself. Whenever you THINK you NEED to sleep, sleep will retaliate by blessing everyone but you. Whenever you KNOW that you MUST sleep, both sleep and your body will unite to give you the power of your 16-year old self to pull an all-nighter.

So what am I deprived of? Is it really sleep or is it something else?

It was winter for a while, the lack of sun. Sometimes it is monotony that kills a drive, suffocating noble spirits. Deprivation can slow you down, if you let it.

So here I stand against the odds, sending another obscure message your way. Beloved community of the void that is Papa Shanghai, this is an effort. An attempt to fight all that we think is lacking, without giving it any power, completely ignoring it.

Sleep is a cruel mistress, even worse: a flaky little fairy.

I am not trying to catch you. Peter Pan knew very well that Tinkerbell was sassy. (Go watch the movie again if you don’t trust me). I am getting off track.

I’ll continue, in my mind, trying not to look at what is lacking. It will come, surely…

…. just like Tinkerbell…

… fairy dust and all.

Toe.

Humanity has walked many paths. It might walk down the path of self-destruction as these lines are being written and you, reading this. It might walk the path of ascending to a place where no civilisation has ever been before. We never know. What we do know is this: there is something always ahead of us. It’s part of us but we never acknowledge them. It’s our toes. 

When do we feel them? When bumping into furniture. Or when taking socks off to feel the grass / sand / water between them. Pleasure and pain, yet again so close. Every step that we take towards doom, pleasure or, said more normative, the right or wrong way, our toes are in the forefront of everything. So why not give them more importance? We could base society more on these little fleshy things that are hidden most of the time. 

For sure, the big toe is a force to be reckon with in this new society. You can already see it, in sandals for example. The big toe is parted by the others. But how do we measure who is to be the ruler, the peak of toe-performance? Toes can be ugly, cute, beautiful, sick…. All of these classifications are in the eye of the spectator. So how do we measure? Well, measure is the right way actually. 

Queens and kings, nobility, that is people with long toes. In relation to their feet of course. Bear with me on this one. So, toes are literally at the forefront of us, gaining ground. And people with longer toes in relation to feet size are, of course, able to gain more ground. 

I myself am a peasant. It is hard to come to that realisation. So even as the creator of this new order I have fallen to the lowest position in this feudal toe-system. Perhaps it is wise to abolish these standards. Perhaps we should stop doing the same for other body parts. Perhaps, we can strive, as a civilisation, only when we stop comparing. Not just toes. 

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